How do I feel?

I shared my new chosen name to my family yesterday.

I told them how to pronounce it, I told them how to pronounce my title. They already know how to pronounce "they" and "them" so pronouns shouldn't be an issue.

Nobody had a particularly enthusiastic response. I'm yet to hear anything more than "Read it" from my dad and step-mom, and I've had not a single word of even confirmation from my mom and my brother. Husband seems ambivalent.

Way to make someone feel accepted.

I've had friends that I've told be more communicative, supportive and accepting.

I guess this is why the LGBTQ+ community celebrates Pride. Because we have to feel that we matter. It's more than just a case of self-worth, it's a case of HAI I'M EXISTING HERE.

I know it takes time to get used to a change like this, but if you're determined that you will get used to it and accept it, then there's a phrase you should adopt in the meantime: fake it til you make it.

How do I feel? It doesn't seem to matter. But I do. I do feel.