Grief

People deal with grief in different ways. I tend to feel it suddenly and acutely and then not at all. That's ok. It's just how I operate. But I know it can be difficult for others to get their heads around.

We lost my father-in-law last night, it was very sudden. Here one minute, gone the next. I've done my crying for him. He was a wonderful grandfather to our kids. Any future crying will be for those left behind, they need the sympathy and empathy more.

I wrote this earlier today. Through the day different people have said or done things that have made me cry unexpectedly. Random acts of kindness. Asking about the kids. Asking after me. I expect there will be more tears to come, as well - we've not yet told the kids that they've lost a grandad. We aren't doing "heaven" but instead will say he's died and that means he's living in the stars now. Simple enough.

The worst part of this is being apart from hubby dearest, who needs all the support he can get at such a sad time. But his place is by his mom and brothers. So sad.